I have had a lot of change lately.
Sometimes, when you are in a rut, and you are really really sad, you just need to get up and change things.
It’s harder done than said. I know.
Trust me. I know.
I was in a really dark place a couple of months back.
I was really, really depressed.
I was recently reading some of the poetry I wrote at that time. And wow. It’s some scary stuff.
If and when I publish it here, I worry you guys might think that’s what I’m going through now…(I assume you care – :P)
I’m fine. Now. Alhamdulillah.
And the journey I have been through, makes this moment right here, right now, that much more precious.
I’m so scared of going back there.
But I know, that sometimes, depression just sneaks up on you.
I might go back to that dark place. I might not.
But I shan’t let the fear of that stop me from living my happiness now 🙂
Alhamdulillah I am home.
I’m in Kenya.
I’m in a new, beautiful relationship.
And I am happy.
Happier that I can remember myself being.
In a long, long while.
I am …almost myself again.
So, any of you who are going through that horrible dark cloud of gloom and dooooom …
there IS a light at the end of the tunnel.
I made it.
So can you.
Pick yourself up right now.
Go to the doctors.
Go speak to a friend.
Go find a counsellor.
Google CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) There are LOTS of cool self-help stuff you can do online.
Get OUT OF YOUR RUT.
If something is causing you unhappiness? Well, change it!
Force yourself to speak to someone. Really. Really.
When you find yourself on the floor, sobbing, with your desire to live leaching out of your eyes, just….
You need a hug.
I love y’all
Thanks for reading.