You don’t understand
Its a drug I can’t explain.
Introspection is a fast track route to insanity.
Yet, a life unexamined…..
In the act of recording an introspective journey into my mind here, I hope to lay in stone my resolutions for the future.
Not New Year’s resolutions, as, it is evident it is now February.
But my Life’s Resolutions.
My dreams and goals.
To be edited, amended, added to, and thrown to the wind, as the situation deems fit.
Not at the come and go of a capricious new year.
Here we go.
1. I am selfish
Earth-shatteringly so. I live for myself. I work for myself. I act for myself. Myself. Myself. Myself.
Plan: I will undertake un-selfish acts. At the very least, ONE a day.
2. I am lazy
Again. Earth-shatteringly so. I LOOOVE to veg out in front of a the T.V screen.
Plan: Join the gym
3. I am shy
Painfully shy. I prefer my company to others. Not only because I’m witty, and funny, and kind….LOL. Mainly because I’m a bit of a loner.
Plan: Smile a little more…to everyone (baby steps)
4. I have lapsed in my faith
Understandably. When faced with trials, one either becomes increasingly devout, leaning on God for strength and love. OR. One shuns the light. And walks (or falls) head first into the darkness. I have had a trying year.
Plan: Prayer (Even though insincere at first, the act in itself shall hopefully bring me closer)
5. I let others walk all over me
This ties in with number 3.
Plan: Humility begets kindness. This is a battle I choose to let God fight for me.
With every bad, I am sure there are 10 good elements within ourselves.
And on that note, I hope to match every negative comment about myself, with two good ones. For the purpose of introspection is self-improvement. And not a spiral into self-loathing.
As a consequence of No. 1 (scroll up) I shall not record those 10 positive attributes here. But I have written them down. And if you are so inclined, I urge you to do the same.
If only to make you smile. And possibly to make you realize, your time on earth hasn’t been such a waste of oxygen after all.
Take a moment.
Take a journey.
Your mind can be a treacherous place.
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